I guessed i had a rough couple of days back since sat.
Yepp.. true tt everything was said and done.
Now mi and him finally find ourselves a compromise point.
We shall remain friends. But i wun look for him unless there is realli a need to.
We shall be like the last three times. When our fate comes again.. we will see how it goes.
But still, i hope u will b happy and carefree, wif her.
Right up till the end, I still cant find a reason to be mad at him.
how funny. when everyone already told me all the facts.
But well, this is between the 2 of us.
We had our chance and we missed it.
I respect your decision.
At least now, we are still able to face and smile at each other.
And we made pacts with each other.
I will hornour them, but time will tell if u realli haf tt heart.
Now wat's left for me is to pick myself up.
Quickly, in fact.
Cos i haven been myself since April.
Drinking is no longer on my list.
But if its for chilling out, by all means. haha.
I tried my very first puff today. But no more. I dun wanna become sum1, i myself cant stand.
Not tt i haf probs wif smokers. Jus tt it jus aint mi. I am alrite if ppl smoke in front of me thou.
Next up, it will be my sch work. Im rather slack now. But i hope i can divert all my attd to it first. Since this might be my last sems in NP. I realli hope to work for the 6mths attachment.
Then, more family time. Mayb i cant stand to be at hm cos its simply too naggy for me.
But if i try my best, mayb things will be better at hm. Den some stuff i might even open up to share wif my mum. But i doubt so. haha. Its not tt easy for mi to open up to ppl. Despite my loud personality k. Loud as in Noisy.
Anyways.. I found a good friend. A friend i had known for exactly 10 yrs. Why i say found cos we lost contact for millions of lightyrs den now we meet again.
And the timing is so good, he understands everything im gg thru without mi having to say anything.
Cos he has been thru it. Thou he may look like he gotten over it, realli kan kai le but when i hear the things tt he did for her, i wonder sometimes if he realli had gotten over.
He listened to my stories and gif mi advice. Its much easier to tok to him cos he wun force mi to accept things. He advice mi.
That's y im sorry for avoiding my bestie. Our prespective is diff from the start. And i realli dun wanna go into tt now, so i chose to settle things by myself. But tt doesnt mean u mean any lesser to me. Im jus tired of telling the same story. We suffered the same fate in the end.
But we handled the situation differently. Now, im still friends wif him. And wif her.
I would rather be friends wif them den hate them. Cos like i said, i had my chance and i missed it. And to hate someone is as tiring as to love someone. So i dun wanna torture myself le. Sometimes that kind of pain in the heart can be very overbearing for me. But now u haf gone thru tt stage le.. and haf sum1 by ur side. I realli hope everything goes well for u. If got any prob, im here. Thou might not b physically cos of our schedule, we can oways sms or msn each other, rite? =)
I really wish u all the best my dear.. But remb wat u promise me, k? =)
A girl. Tired of everything.
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